I need some advice. I'm coming to an end of my first postdoc... and yeah where now?
I've come to realize that I don't have a grand plan. I don't know what my future should be. Should I want my own lab? I did, but now? I mean, it would be nice to have other people do the actual hard work, and I make unreasonable demands all day. No, scrub that, I do want my own lab, and make unreasonable demands all day. And a coffee machine, with good coffee. I'm not as smart as people out there, and I'm a bit burnt out from this project, so thinking of what my theoretical lab would do... maybe it's about cancer, and stuff I like doing? I can't just say, I want a lab that will work on cancer... how? what kind? etc. I don't know.
Anyway, I'm looking at doing my second postdoc. I was considering stepping away from the bench, and I applied for non-bench work - and was rejected because other people had more practical experience in the field . So, I'm staying at the bench. I do like the bench.
Now, I have a couple of institutes that are "very" interesting. So, how do you pick. Or better still, how do you tell the rejected institutes that they are rejected? I don't wont to burn any bridges. And, then there is the fellowship options... I've been invited to apply for some fellowships . Not happy, but if I got them, , well that's different.
So, what if I accept a position where there is already funding and then I get a fellowship for somewhere else?
Of, if my fellowship is at a place not as good as the place where the funding already is? Is it alright to reject a fellowship? I'm the type of person who doesn't like rejecting things.
How do you decide between a better institute vs better project?
Anywhere you would recommend working - or not recommend working?
So confused - tired, with the flu, snotty, and confused. And today I discovered that one of my eyebrow hairs has turned white. Yay, stress is getting to me.
Edited by vetticus3, 28 May 2013 - 05:42 AM.