I'm doing a PhD in mol.biology in Germany. I'm at my 3rd year of work. I'm completely disappointed and depressed. During my time I told my boss several times that the project is poorly designed and research I'm doing is lacking sense. It is a partly repetition, partly unnecessary surplus to what was already done. I do not have any supervision from my boss, he absolutely doesn't case about me or other phd students. I feel like I being dropped completely alone. Neither I have any supervision from postdocs working in the lab.
I tired of things that permanently do not work, I'm tired of being depressed every evening. I hope that I will be able to get my degree at some point (not actually sure if I'll be able to or is it worth to). I'm looking forward to move away from this lab.
The problems I have: 1) even if I have my degree at the end, there will be no publication whatsoever; 2) I'm from 3rd world country and non-native English speaker (I feel greatly restricted by this) and I do not want to go back ; 3) I don't want to do a Postdoc because I don't feel any physical and mental power to go again into same sort of troubles. At the moment I feel completely exhausted.
I don't know what to do. What should I do? I completely disappointed in academic research. I'm constantly depressed, 'cos I do not see any possibilities for myself. What is the value of the phd degree without any publication record? I was told that without publication one cannot find a job neither in industry nor in academia (only in bad groups)? What job I can apply after except postdoc?
Edited by Goggi, 02 January 2013 - 12:22 PM.