Today the issues in this lab have come to a head. Over the past year I have seen the other grad students in the lab return from the boss' office in tears...I think today was to have been my turn. (After a decade of working for a series of jerks, I have no tears, or patience, left.)
Since last September I have:
changed fields from microbiology to plant molecular biology
relearned Mendelian inheritance in a diploid species
genotyped an historically mis-managed advanced population while searching for the correct parents of the initial hybridization
constructed a linkage map for 20 chromosomes using a few hundred individuals, including screening for polymorphic markers, since January
and now am in the middle of tidying up missing data on a single growing season, field work for the next season, and writing a thesis that is now due next month instead of in December
endured hour-long lectures about how I am inefficient and waste my time working inefficiently
been told that I am not going to be kept, now a PhD student, no, just a master's, maybe not kept...(shuffle and repeat)
been told that I do not understand my project (question: how do you want me to design the field layout?)
now I have to write my thesis on the basis of data I do not have
...which will be my evaluation to determine if I am good enough to be a PhD student
...but I got an undergrad helper since I am the sole investigator on my project now
the other people in the lab don't like me and don't want to talk to me because I am not nice
...but I am too nice, and should say what is bothering me once in a while
he is interested in seeing my "real personality"
I should be able to get all my work done during 8-5 pm, even though there are 10 of us in the lab and 5 thermalcyclers
and today, at the end of another hour-long lecture on how I am inefficient with my time (interrupting the work that I was doing at the time): He doesn't think I have the ability to do data analysis (on data I don't have), so he must reconsider whether I am good enough to be a PhD student since I was "unsuccessful" in my previous field (as a technician) for the past 10 years.
That last unprofessional remark is what made me snap. The other people in the lab (yes, he said this in front of everyone else in the lab) said the look on my face was "unmistakable" and they were surprised that I managed to smile and say "thank you for the advice". The lab manager said she was surprised, since the other grad students would have been in tears by then and I recovered well enough to say thank you. I took the undergrad's advice and went to the bar.
I am not sure what to do next; I sent him an email telling him that I was concerned about his misinterpretation of my choice in career direction and that I was deeply hurt by his remark. I'm still pretty steamed about it, but I'm afraid I will have to take another walk on my own--a long-legged angry person + mini schnauzer = forced march for the dog. When I picked up the leash tonight, he whined and limped away as fast as he could! I am really tempted to ask a magic 8-ball for advice, but figured I should see what real people have to say first.
Any thoughts? I'm holding it together at work, but if this keeps up my poor dog will lose a lot of weight. Thanks.
edited 'cause I'm so mad I can't spell right...
Edited by lab rat, 25 May 2011 - 07:17 PM.