Posted by Adrian K, 14 June 2011 · 10,408 views
My stipend was stopped 3 months ago, because the last research grant expired. Now I'm on my own, not funded, and I have to fork-out money to pay my semester fees.The next semester starts coming August, but I do not have money even to pay my next month room rental.I should have finished my project by now, however due to unavoidable situation (by those nonsense university administrator) which caused many delays in chemical purchasing and delivery, and thus everything was delayed.-----------------------------------------------------------My Dear both Boss, if you are reading this:I told you one and a half year ago to let me change my project; it is not progressing as we expected. We never have any experience in doing such work. There are no experienced collaborator. The project was restart from scratch for 5 times, yet we still came back to the same bottleneck: there is no method for us to identify the lectin, whatever method we had tried was failed. You can't even suggest me what to do next. You once told me:" you are not credible enough to do work on your own, yet" on my first meeting with you around two and a half years back. But yet you never guide me any hands on before, neither of you both, but you asked me to coach, teach and assist your other graduate and undergraduate students.I give an idea as my backup plan for graduation, but you disapproved it. I do it secretly, and when it was working, you critics saying it is waste of time and not your interest. After I had consulted many people and perfected it, you patent it without asking whether I want it to be patent. I need your help, as I need your fame & connection to ask for some samples for the assay validation which is not available locally. But after more than a year you still ask me "what is that sample for?". I managed to get a respond from overseas, I offer him a second authorship, but you disagree, and I don't see your effort in helping me to obtain the sample. You gave me reasons where I can't accept at all. I secretly deal with another group, yes, a group, your ally, you know them more than I do, and I managed to convince them to agree to send me the samples, without telling them I'm your student. The group are very kind people, they do not have any reasons you mentioned earlier to reject them. Their track record is even better than you. They even help me more than you do. Now, after all these craps was settled, however, you told me that it is just my "side project" and it will never become my thesis. Okay, but I had seen other institution had awarded degrees for such project.We are not a large research group. We have limited funding and instruments. But you still take in graduate & undergraduate students. 20 students now with 1 working PCR machine and 2 shaking incubators, no research grants. That's what we got, really. Do not expect we can do proteomics work here, you almost throw away my expensive kits and competent cells. Forget about columns purification stuff. You don't even know the professors from other department. Maybe you know, but you do not bother to tell me. Well, I remember deeply you once told me is very hard for you to "bow down yourself" to ask for something from others.My bosses,I remember I attended few real-time PCR courses sponsored by suppliers, but you shows me dark faces when I back to the lab. I had proposed to do some real-time work but you said it was not necessary. I had went for interview in few companies. Most of them do not employ me because I do not have experience in REAL-TIME PCR. I wondered what you had taught/trained me till now, except endurance. I do not have the "commercial" skills.Damn, you never train me after all. I was wondering why I was in your lab all these while. I made a big mistake.I just want to get my master and graduate. Just let me go. No worries, I will not going to become a reviewer to review your papers in the future. I feel happier to open a hawker stall and self employed as a chef.FYI, I just check and I have less than USD50 in my bank account. This is your graduate student.